Courtesy of my friend and comrade Mitch, this photo is of a couple copy of Dark Slivers on sale in the Aberdeen Museum of History. I posted a couple copies across, gratis, just told them to consider it a small donation to the museum and to do as they wished with them. From my side, frankly, it felt good the idea of a copy of my work being there in Kurt Cobain’s town – I enjoy these symbolisms and connections.
As a personal philosophy, I believe that there is no all-encompassing or innate meaning in the world; meaning is something reflected on and verified. Looking after one’s children can be a meaning, but it isn’t inherent, it’s a choice made by the parent to elevate that potential action to a higher level. Similarly, most human activity isn’t a meaning in and of itself, it merely serves one whether that’s aggrandisement, the alleviation of boredom, the quelling of those voices in the head that everyone has, the desire to do good by others. I consider that a mark of freedom, that meaning is not imposed, that it is chosen by each individual whether that means they embrace or rebel against those inherited from their social ties and wider community. Few of our actions day to day will ever be acknowledged let alone approved of by others – that’s why it’s on each individual to choose to perform the actions they feel have meaning, for their own reasons, for their own satisfaction. To permit oneself to be a conduit for a meaning that one doesn’t believe in, unless that choice serves a higher meaning that one does believe in (i.e., safety, security, winning of a favour, support of another person or persons), is the ultimate weakness. Thus, does the presence of my book in Aberdeen, WA mean anything at all…? Nope! But it feels significant to me, to have a copy of a work that took me 20-30 hours a week for around 40 weeks, on top of all the background learning over the two decades that came before, resting in the place where the individual at the centre of it all emerged. It feels nicely complete.
This was the other nice moment of what was quite a busy week (if I’m lucky I may have another piece of news to relay later sometime) – the LiveNirvana site published their review of the Dark Slivers book courtesy of Adam Andrews, the owner of LiveNirvana. A definite and public thank you to the gentleman at this point for taking the time to take a look – appreciated. Rasmus Holmen did one over at the Internet Nirvana Fan Club back in February 2013 and, again, on a personal level, seeing it up there feels pretty good.